Sad

I have so enjoyed each and every moment and milestone of Staley's almost 15 months.  I can't be sad about her growing and changing because I'm so amazed at the little person she is becoming.  I loved newborn Staley and I loved baby Staley and I love my little toddler Staley.  Each phase brings so much new joy and excitement as I watch Staley's world grow and expand that I can't feel sadness...until this week.

I can honestly say that I felt my first true twinge of Staley-growing-up sadness this week.  Staley is done nursing.  And that has been hard for me.  She has been losing interest over the past month or two, but I continued on--mostly for my own sake.  She never fought it or refused to nurse, but talking or looking around or becoming distracted by the cats/Zach/the ceiling fan/random noises began to take precedence over the nursing.  I gave up night nursing last month because she REALLY wasn't interested with a full belly of dinner, but I'd kept her morning nursing time because I just loved starting our day off together in that peaceful, bonding moment. 

Staley hasn't missed it at all.  She doesn't ask for morning milk or seem at all concerned that our nursing time together is over.  But I miss it.  I do.  I miss the closeness.  I miss our quiet morning moments.  I miss looking down on my baby as she looks back up at me.  I miss our special time that she couldn't share with anyone else.  And I'm sad.  I won't dwell on it, but I need a moment to be sad.  Just a moment to think back about how much has changed in the past 15 months and how quickly it has gone.  And then I'll move on so that I can fully enjoy our moments together tomorrow and the next day and the next, because the next 15 months are going to fly by just as quickly...and I don't want to waste any of that precious time being sad.

St. Louis...In Staley's Own Words

We all had a WONDERFUL time on our mini-vacation to St. Louis this week.  The Botanical Gardens, Forest Park, Purina Dog Farms, the zoo, the carousel at the zoo, eating out, swimming at our hotel, visiting with friends and family,...  Did I mention the carousel at the zoo?  There were so many highlights.  To share our trip, enjoy these photos of Staley's highlights and captions (in Staley's own words)...

Flower.  Touch.  Gentle.

(See previous caption.  I couldn't decide between the two 'touching' pictures.  Staley loved gently touching all the flowers.)

Sheep.  Baaa.  Pet.

(We had to find these sheep again at the Botanical Gardens when Staley couldn't stop talking about them.)

Chair.  Sit.  Please. 

(This girl loves to try out any chair/bench/couch that she sees.  Worked out nicely that this one was already set up for a photo op.)

Bunny.  Treats.  Dance.

(The Easter bunny at the mall danced for Staley and gave her treats.  Now every Easter Bunny she sees is a dear friend.  MUCH better than scary old Santa.)

Swimming.  Splash.  Ethan.

(The last time we went swimming, it was with her friend Ethan.  Now swimming is forever linked with Ethan.)

Hi.  Baby.  (And of course...) Chair.  Sit.  Please.

(Looking like a big girl next to 7 month olds Maddy and Mason.)

Train.  Choo choo.  People.  Hi.

(Staley LOVED riding the train and waving/saying 'hi' to the people on the train everytime we saw it go by.)

And the award for best part of vacation goes to...

Carousel.  Puffin.  Up.  Down.  MORE!

Taking a Break in Spring

 Zach finished his busy season at work, got caught back up at work with everything that fell to the wayside during busy season, and just finished another MBA class.  He needed a break.  I only work two days a week, but that doesn't mean I didn't want a break too.  So we took one.  And here I sit, lounging on a couch in a St. Louis hotel room with Staley napping and Zach out running in Forest Park.  What a fabulous break we are having!!

We didn't make any plans for our week off work.  We thought we might do some jobs around the house, take Staley to the park or the zoo, maybe enjoy a day or two in St. Louis.  We woke up Monday morning to a cold, dreary day.  The weather report for St. Louis?  75 and sunny.  So we packed, booked a hotel, and headed down a few hours later.  We booked our hotel for two nights, but have had such a fun time in the most b-e-a-utiful March weather imaginable that we extended our stay one more night.

I will post pictures when we get home, but here are some highlights to tide you over.

Staley:  gently touching the flowers at the Botanical Gardens, riding the carousel at the zoo (4 times!), seeing the Easter Bunny at Purina Farms, saying 'hi' and making friends everywhere we go.

Ellen:  eating pizza at Pi, visiting with my cousin Emily and my friend Jenny, the perfect weather, and the joy of sharing new places and new experiences with Staley.

Zach:  eating pizza at Imos, watching the dog show at Purina Farms, cold draught rootbeer from Fitz's, and (even though he's not back yet) I'm sure that running in picturesque Forest Park on a wonderful running trail in perfect weather will make his list.

Almost Fearless

Maybe it's a lack depth perception.  Maybe it's decreased understanding of how much it might hurt.  Maybe it's just an innate bring-it-on attitude.  Whatever it is, the prospect of falling from heights does not faze my little girl.  Walking around on the couch.  Leaning precariously over the edge of our bed.  Standing on the counter.  Walking quickly towards the top of the porch steps.  Apparently my daughter has no fear of hurtling off a high surface.  Head injuries.  Broken bones.  Bumps and bruises.  She apparently laughs in the face of these dangers.  But fearless?  Not quite.  Because grass...well that's still a little scary.

Little Jokester

Staley has officially made her first joke.  It may not make you laugh out loud, but it amuses Staley each and every time she tells it (which is quite often).  And who can resist smiling along when someone truly gets enjoyment out of their own joke?  So here it is:

Staley:  Uma.  Puppy.
Me:  Does Uma have a puppy?
Staley:  (Big smile and little head shake)  No.

Staley:  Papa. Puppy.
Me:  Does Papa have a puppy?
Staley: (Big smile and little head shake) No.

Staley:  Susan [her baby-sitter].  Puppy.
Me: Does Susan have a puppy?
Staley:  Yes!

Then we go through Christian/puppy and Taylor/puppy (Susan's kids who, in Staley's eyes, also have ownership of the puppy), and then we start again with Uma and Papa.  Hilarious, isn't it???  But one of the great things about this joke is that you can expand your joke repetoire with simple variations. Staley has already produced her own variation.

As I've mentioned previously, Staley always associates her cousin, Cade, with basketball.  She got to watch him play in several basketball games and clearly thinks he's the next Michael Jordan.  Everytime she mentions Cade, she mentions basketball as well.  The other day, she turned this into her next little joke.

Staley:  Olivia.  [Her cousin and Cade's sister].  Basketball.
Me:  Does Oliva play basketball?
Staley:  (Big smile and little head shake.)  No.

Staley:  Lila.  [Cade's other sister].  Basketball.
Me:  Does Lila play basketball?
Staley:  (Big smile and little head shake.)  No.

And so it goes.  Humor abounding at the Sancken house.  So the next time you need to lighten the mood or liven up a party, feel free to mix it up with Staley's joke recipe.  I know at least one little girl who will be thoroughly amused!

Goodbye, Old Blue

Based on my vast knowledge of helium balloons, the average lifespan of your run-of-the-mill, multi-colored, latex, helium-filled balloon is about 2-3 days.  Which makes this feat all the more astounding.  Last night, we FINALLY said good-bye to the last remaining balloon from Staley's birthday party.  Staley's birthday party that was over 2 months ago.  65 days ago, to be exact.  Yes, I did pay the extra $ .30 for the high-float (to make the balloons last a little longer), but never did I expect Staley to get so many months of enjoyment.  It was a little sad to say good-bye, but I don't think this balloon could complain.  He was a birthday party attraction.  He was the delight of a little girl.  He got played with and talked about multiple times each day.  He was not exposed to the elements, stuck away in a corner, or popped before his time.  It was a full life, and we were glad to share it with him.
 

The glory days

Basking in the love and admiration of a little girl

Good-bye, Old Blue.  You will be missed!!

A Letter to a Dear Friend

Dear Spring,

Boy, how I've missed you!!  I didn't realize exactly how much I've missed you until you showed up at my doorstep this week.  Warm and sunshiney, you make the world a happier place.  I love putting on my t-shirt, kicking off my shoes, and playing in your presence.  I have been spending some quality time with you and your friends Porch Swing, Playground, Sidewalk Chalk, and Stroller.  You bring out the best in me!  I feel more relaxed, happy, energetic.  You motivate me to work out.  You beckon me to blow off housework and laundry.  You are the reason I skipped my errands today and went to the zoo instead.  I am so thankful that you are here, but I know that our relationship is a rocky one.  You may leave without warning.  You will eventually let the hot summer sun run you off.  I wish I could convince you to stay forever, but I know that thought is futile.  So I am going to enjoy my time with you, however long it may be.  Thanks for making my week so wonderful.  Thanks for reminding me to enjoy the simple pleasures you bring.  Thanks for always coming back.

Your forever friend,

Ellen